MARTIAL LAW: BALIK TANAW

hindi ko na siguro kailangang mabuhay pa noong 1972 para malaman ang kasuklamsuklam na estadong ating bansa ng mga panahong iyon. tama nang marinig ko ang mga salitang martial lawpara kilabutan at huwag ng pangarapin pang mabuhay sa panahong iyon ng ating kasaysayan. hindiko na kailangan pang mabuhay noong rehimen ni marcos para malaman na laganap ang tahasangpambabastos ng pamahalaan sa mga mamamayan na dapat sana ay kanyang pinaglilingkuran.sapat na ang nababasa ko sa mga aklat ng kasaysayan at sa mga pahayagan para malamanna higit pa sa isang langgam kung ituring ang mga mamamayan ng isang taong may hindi maipagkakailang talino ngunit nilamon mismo ng talinong ito at ng kanyang ambisyon namamuno na parang isang diyos.

hindi ko na din kinakailangan pang pangaraping sumama sa mga demonstrasyon noong martial law para malaman na ang pagpapahayag ng saloobin ay maaring magingmitsa ng aking buhay.dahil nang gawin ito ng ilang magsasaka sa mendiola,ang buhay nilaay binawi na tila ba masahol ba sila sa mga asong gala. hindi ko na kailangan pang sumamasa mga pagkilos at ipagsigawan ang aking poot at pag-aaklas laban sa rehimeng diktaturya para malamang maari akong makulong at itorture, mamatay, o mawala na lamang ng parang bula.hindi ko na kinakailanga pang makita ang pagbaril kay lean alejandro sa kanyang sariling sasakyan para malaman na ang tahasang paglaban sa mapang-aping gobyerno ay maari kong ikamatay.

hindi ko pinangarap na masilayan ang harapang pang-aalipusta ng mga nasa puder upang pagsilbihan lamangang kanilang mga sarili. tama na sa aking malaman na ang ilang mga matataas na pinuno ng militar na dapat sana ay nangangalaga sa kapakanan at seguridad ng mga pilipinoang sya pa mismong maglalagay sa kanila sa bingit ng alanganin. mga mamamhaling relo lamang palaang katumbas ng ating bayan. marapat lang sigurong tawaginsilang traydor.

sapat na na aking makita sa mga dokumentaryo o makita sa ilang mga libro angmarangyang buhay ng pamilyang marcos habang ang pamumuhay ng karamihan ay sing sahol ng buhay ng mga baboy sa kural. ang mga kasayahansa palasyo noon at ang mga pagdalaw sa ibang bansa ng mga marcos ay isa lamang palabasupang matakpan ng kinang ng kanilang mga kasuotan ang madilim na buhay na dinaranas ng mga taong kanila dapat pinagsisilbihan.

hindi ako nabuhay noong 1972 para masaksihan ang pilipinas sa kalunoslunos na kalagayan.bagkos ako ay nabubuhay sa kasalukuyan. isang kasalukuyang dapat sana ay napalaya na mula sa pagkakagapos ng mapang-aping rehimen. isang kasalukuyang dapat sana ay hindina nababalot ng takot. isang kasalukuyang dapat sana ay mapayapa. dapat sana.

bakit hindi ko na kinakailangan pang mabuhay noong martial law? dahil ang nakaraan ay hindinaiiba sa kasalukuyan. patuloy pa rin ang pang-babastos ng mga nasa puder sa electorate,patuloy pa din ang walang pakundangang pagwawaldas ng pera ng bayan, marami pa din ang nawawala at di na nakikita dahil lamang sila ay nagpahayag ng pagkadismayasa mga nasa puder. ang batas militar ay pumanaw na nga kasama ni marcos,ang pisikal na presensya lamang ni marcos ang nawala.patuloy pa rin ang batas militar. ang kinaibahanlamang natin sa ngayon ay nakakaboto na tayo. ngunit ang natatanging sandata natin laban sa mga kahaman sa kapangyarihan ay inaalis pa sa atin. patuloypa rin ang pangbabastos sa demokrasya; masahol pa sa martial law.

hindi ko na kinakailangan pang mabuhay pa noong 1972 para madanas ang pasakit ng martial law. dahil ang kalbaryo ng 1972 ay hindi pa natatapos hanggang sa ngayon.

pebi talking in gibberish again around 9:34 AM

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

FACE OFF

as expected, my ADD is starting to kick in and to combat boredom i tried to convinced myself, through technology, that i have stellar look-a-likes..wahahahaha!!!am just humoring myself..

this one is my favorite..

and now, its my friends' turn..sila lang ang may picture sa akin ngayon kaya sila lang ang nagawan ko..*wink*

pebi talking in gibberish again around 12:00 PM

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

SURVEY GALORE

office apocalypse...i have to kill time by doing nonsensical stuff like these..haha!!nag-enjoy naman ako eh..*wink*

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

You Are Mr. Burns

Okay, so you're evil... You have big plans to rule the world, and you'll destroy it in the process if necessary! You will be remembered for: the exploitation of the masses Life philosophy: "One dollar for eternal happiness? I'd be happier with the dollar."

The Simpsons Personality Test

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mutsuko Nomiya

What's your Japanese Name?

You Belong in Paris

You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris. You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe.

What European City Do You Belong In?

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick

You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times. Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness! Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are 52% Weirdo

You're definitely quite strange, but you can act like a normal person when you have to. (But just because you can act normally, it certainly doesn't mean you want to!) You have normal aspects to your personality... but you usually don't choose to emphasize them.

Are You A Weirdo?

You Are More Like Angelina Jolie

Bad girl with a heart of gold. You are smart, sexy, and strong willed. You aren't against stealing another girl's man... If he's better off with you!

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

pebi talking in gibberish again around 11:32 AM

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Monday, September 17, 2007

THE VIRGIN SUICIDES HIGH

for some reasons the screen adaptation of the virgin suicides have been lingering in my head these past few days..pati soundtrack nagpe-play sa isip ko na para bang may nakasalpak na cd sa utak ko na patuloy na tumutugtog sa bawat minuto ng buhay ko..especially this one, playgrond love by the french duo air..kung adiksyon ang tawag dito, siguro i am just high..simply inebriated by the cinematic prowess of sofia coppola..be entranced..

pebi talking in gibberish again around 3:01 AM

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Friday, September 14, 2007

THE LOST SIMPSON LAD *WINK*

i actually think i am bart and lisa stucked in one human body, with the attention span of maggie...yes i am the eldest child of homer and marge who left the realm of caricatures and vivid colors at age 0...hahahaha!!maybe i just can't get over the simpsons movie...haha!

a fun advertisement of burger king (of course in the US) for the simpsons movie i got from tickles.com..enjoy..*wink*

pebi talking in gibberish again around 8:40 AM

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

TUMPAK!

i've had this "theory" on why fraternities still exist and UP, why they are so enticing (not to mention intriguing) to some, and why do they have to involve themselves in such brutal rites.although i have good friends who are bonafide frat and soro members, i still cannot understand the initiation part (at least some parts of it). here is an article from the PDi by Michael Tan, and his point is almost similar to mine (its just that the way he presented it was clearer than mine*wink*). read and contemplate.

sabi na machismo kasi eh.ok now, just read.*wink*


Beyond the frats

By Michael Tan
Inquirer
Last updated 10:54pm
(Mla time) 09/11/2007

VISIT UP DILIMAN’S WEBSITE AND YOU WILL FIND a photograph of women students in black, carrying placards that read, “Justice for Cris.” They’re referring to Cris Anthony Mendez, the latest casualty in what is suspected to be fraternity hazing.

As we move into our centennial, people at UP are asking, “Why do we still have these frats?”
I’d suggest the problem isn’t just a matter of frats. We may have to look at the tensions, the fault lines in UP’s organizational culture and the potentially lethal combination of factors like class and gender that make the frats so explosive.

There’s no lack of research to show that Filipinos have a high need for affiliation and that we get this mainly from smaller groups and organizations. As the organizations grow and build their hierarchies, power struggles emerge and splits occur.

UP is no exception. A freshman comes in and is dazzled by the alphabet soup of organizations, with something from everyone, from animé to zoology. The organizations work hard at recruitment with each new school year, sometimes with excessive zeal. Some departments, including my own (anthropology), actually had to step in and handle our own freshmen orientation because we felt the organizations were becoming too aggressive with their membership campaigns.

Many freshmen do sign up with one or several organizations. Beyond social affiliation, the organizations are seen as a key to survival in the university. UP can be intimidating—all the more so for a young student from a middle-class background and from some small town. They’ll be quick to join an organization, usually a regional one to touch base with “kababayan” and one for the academic course they’re enrolled in. The latter is more of a knowledge network, getting tips on what might come out in exams and choosing teachers (preferably the ones who give high grades, I am told) and for borrowing lecture notes and textbooks. Some organizations will also organize tutorials and review classes, and in this high-tech age, e-groups to keep members informed about important developments.

I wouldn’t underestimate the economic angle here, especially if the student is in UP for the long haul, for courses like law and medicine. This is where the frats, and to some extent, the sororities, come in. Frats have declined in popularity among upper-class Filipinos, but are still able to ride on past glory, mainly counting the rich, the powerful, the famous and infamous among their alumni: Ferdinand Marcos for Upsilon, for example, or Juan Ponce Enrile for Sigma Rho. These are alpha male achievers held up to emulate, and for students from the underclass, they represent a world that could be theirs as well.

This is where machismo comes in. Frats represent a testosterone-driven culture that can be appealing to young males from more traditional backgrounds. The frat rituals are actually part of machismo allure; some of these students come from public high schools and communities with very brutal hazing as well (ironically, copied from the Greek-letter frats which they associated with the upper class).

Machismo turns lethal when combined with class. The wealthier fratmen are not about to beat some neophyte from their own class. (There aren’t that many joining now, and if they do, now, now, we can’t beat up the congressman’s or the general’s little boy, so hey, see that one from the province?) Fortunate are they if the initiation consists of running errands for their frat masters, or stripping down for the Oblation Run. And as the neophytes get beaten up, they’re picking up the frat’s sacred tradition: deep in their subconscious, they know they can get back the following year, by beating up new lower-class neophytes.

The frats represent an extreme in local organizational culture, with a feudal core that emphasizes conformity with organizational mates and obedience to “superiors” and that can be someone just a year ahead of you. I’ve had to deal even with students who end up taking courses they don’t want to take simply because their organization heads told them to.
“Walang iwanan” is a phrase I hear often. On the surface, it sounds noble, with its sense of solidarity and not leaving anyone behind. In reality, it smacks of a dangerous herd instinct. Throw in some Machiavellian student leaders, maybe even faculty members advising the organization, and you have a cult in the making.

The pragmatism and survival instincts are there, certainly, and some are smarter than others at maneuvering their way through the organizational minefields, but much more needs to be done by administrators and teaching staff. My anthropology faculty actually had to meet to discuss these problems late last year and we’ve made it a point now to be very explicit in telling the freshmen that they are not obliged to join any association, not even the one of anthropology.
Walk the talk though, I tell my young faculty. Be on the lookout for students from more disadvantaged backgrounds who will need part-time work to earn extra money to get the textbooks and meet living expenses. The key here is letting them know they won’t need to be forced to join an organization just for the “connections.” Internet access, which the university provides to all students, provides new opportunities here. There are e-groups for undergrads and graduate students, and each of the subjects I teach has its own website so students can access review guides and lecture summaries.

Of course, the Internet can never replace face-to-face interactions and our department undergraduate and graduate advisers have made it clear to the students that they can seek advice whenever they need, but, and this is an important but, without creating a patron-client relationship.

It’s an uphill battle. I make no claims to having all the answers, but believe it’s time to ask the right questions, too. And as we do that, educational institutions must be guided by equity, providing all students with more or less equal access to social support and networks, so they won’t need to feel obligated to join an organization. If and when they do, it should be to pursue a focused and shared interest, whether in indie films or genetics.

Finally, as teachers and parents, we will have to ask ourselves some tough questions. Do we nag too much, warning students against frats and barkada, yet leaving untouched the questions of machismo and blind conformity and all the crippling, murdering, parochial and feudal values of Philippine society? In this age of the Filipino diaspora, we need to better prepare our students for the world out there. These will be young Filipinos who can build lifelong loyalties and friendships, who will be remembered not just for an infectious sense of humor and conviviality, but also for fierce independence of mind and of spirit.

pebi talking in gibberish again around 8:40 AM

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Friday, September 07, 2007

HUH?

my mental process had become even slower these past couple of days and i guarantee you i will do anything you want me to do without even uttering a single word. hence, this post

Instructions:
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a list of their own 6 weird things in their blog as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.Let's Start...


1. i have this perpetual urge to kick, hit the windshield and scrath any scintillating, brand new car within 50- meter of my radius. maybe my aggressive id suppresed for the longest time now trying to make a scene..(hey am i not violent enough?hahaha!)

2.i am rather standoffish and snob. yes, that is so true.(you would believe a self-confessed blabbermouthed social animal anyway?haha!)

3. i automatically and discreetly (but most of the time tactlessly) mumble "bading" everytime i see a guy looking like an obedient dog beside his girlfriend while carrying her underweight and miniature shoulderbag.(stupid guys..more gay then their girlfriends minus the excessive make up..revised the chivalry code!)

4. i have an attention span of a 2 year old kid with ADD.(i wonder why am i still working with lola?hmm...)

5. i am a movie buff but don't know much about movies.(two words:shame erudition)

6. it takes a loooong while before i get over a guy. but i am not miserable.rather, i am indifferent with the feelings.(umalis ang aalis. magpaalam lang. haha!)

now i am passing the crown to: OLGA, SONOFADITCH, IAN, MIGUEL, JANINE, MHARE

pebi talking in gibberish again around 4:31 PM

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Thursday, September 06, 2007

BATA, BATA....ANO ANG IYONG GINAWA?


nakakita ka na ba ng batang haggard? ito batang haggard, nakasakay ko sa jeep..bulagta kung bulagta!parang obrero lang, dinaig pa ako..hahaha!the kid is such a fun sight to watch so i decided to devote a space on my blog just for him. *wink*

bata, bata..ano ang iyong ginawa?*wink*

pebi talking in gibberish again around 8:09 AM

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Monday, September 03, 2007

SUNDAY DRIVIN'

after such a long time ngayon lang kami uli nagkasama sama nila ronald at joyce..yeboi!!!

dahil tapos na si ronald sa defense nya (yeboi!) at si joyce naman ay nginangarag ang thesis nya (double yeboi!), kami ay nagpasyang magkita kita. ang saya magkaroon ng kaibigan na may pajero.roadtrip galore ito..hahaha!! next stop: TAGAYTAY!!

pichur pichur habang nagmamaneho..gudlak..

ang haggard, ang "frek frek" at ang RN

more pics: http://pebicentric.multiply.com/

pebi talking in gibberish again around 2:35 PM

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